Angela Burzo is a mother of two, having recently given birth to her third child. However, this time around is much different than the former, since Angela strived to cope with the process of breastfeeding, but it turned out to be more than she could handle.
“I love seeing all these beautiful women in their beautiful nursing clothes smiling down at their babes as they lovingly look up back at them hand in hand while breastfeeding away,” wrote Angela on her Instagram social account page.
“That is not my reality, right now that is. This is real & as much as I want to stay strong and be the soldier I feel I can be I cannot hide the struggle that is breastfeeding,” she explained.
Instead of brushing off the pain and keeping quiet about the struggle a significant percentage of women go through in their lives, Angela decided to open up and voice her latest inner conflict of not feeling like an adequate mother.
“Whether she is not latching on properly, whether I am not producing enough milk to keep up with her demand, whether my nipples might not be adequate, whether we confused her with having to give her a bottle after pumping … whatever it may be it has been an emotional & painful struggle,” wrote Angela, attaching a picture she took of herself while breastfeeding, to present the agony she must go through every time she wants to feed her child.
“This photo depicts my reality of this Breastfeeding journey so far & that first latch & the pain I endure. Keeping it real.”
The reason it took Angela so long to share what she has been going through is that she was worried other mothers might judge her and criticize the fact she is having a difficult time ignoring the pain.
However, much to Angela’s surprise, most of the people who took the time to respond to her post were supportive and very understanding.
In addition to receiving so many reinforcing messages online, Angela decided to move on to supplementing breast milk with formula, just as she did to her firstborn son, Joey.
“He is totally amazing, so I know it can be done,” said Angela of her son. “I think since this is my second time around, you know that saying ‘if I knew then what I know now’ I feel like why shouldn’t I be able to do this.”
Angela posted once more after she gave little Aylee a bit of formula, and was delighted with the results. She thanked all those who supported her and were willing to lend a hand and hear her out during the internal debate she had and was contempt with the decision she made.
“We are all on this journey of Motherhood together but our paths are never the same,” she wrote on her Instagram account. “It is nice that we carry each other through though when times get tough.”